I'm tired of crying
I'm tired of trying
I may be smiling
But on the inside
I'm dying

Day by day
I melt away
As I sway
In the rain
While pushing away
the tears
who threaten to erupt
and overwhelm me
yet I'm still smiling
And yet
I'm still dying

Every smile
I've ever smiled
Has been for you
The one I love
Through and through
The one who makes me smile
The one who makes me laugh
But also
The one who ignores me
as if he's ashamed
The one who leaves me
with a pain in the heart so fierce
That's as sharp as daggars
The one who leaves me in
In the cold, dark, blackness
Of lonlyness
And yet
I'm still smiling
But
I'm still dying

I'm pushing away
My many regrets
My many memorise
As I give up
all of my hope
As I lay
Broken and frayed
On the cold, hard ground
Which will be my grave
And yet
I was smiling
While I was dying

You watched
As I died
Without a tear
In my eye
Without any regrets
for the world that I have left
My heart had turned black
My blood had run cold
But now
My heart has stopped
The daggars have dulled
I thought of you
One last time
And I was smiling
As I lay dying